New year, new Sara. That’s right. It’s time for me to dust off this blog. It’s been too long, you know?
I was just going to post about how awful 2011 was and how I can’t wait for 2012 because maybe it will be better. But then I saw a very insightful post that my friend Wes, who had his house hit by the flood, posted. As poor as my health was this year, it wasn’t like nothing good came out of this year. 2011 was the year that beat some sense into me. And while I wouldn’t really want to go back and relive it, I think it had to happen to make me change.
And it wasn’t all bad. Not in the slightest. So let’s focus on the positive with this blog entry, shall we?
Sure, I’ve had a debilitating, stress-induced tooth and jaw problem, but what good has happened? Well, the answer is… alot.
I’m going to do my Top 11 of 2011 list. These are some pretty rad things in my life that made (and make) me happy, despite the tooth stuff. These are in no particular order.
1. Guinness Book of World Records Event:
Back in February, I got to go to the Guinness Book of World Records event and hang out with some guys from Media Molecule, and even get to meet some of my LBP friends.
2. Hansel and Gretelbot and the Game Jam that Almost Was:
Also, I got to work on this: http://www.mediamolecule.com/blog/article/hansel_gretelbot/
It probably beat me up more than any other creative project I’ve ever done, but when I search Hansel and Gretelbot, pictures I drew come up! And while there were parts of the project that were teeth-grindingly hard, seeing the finished project was pretty freakin’ awesome. Knowing that something that you did was out there and being enjoyed by that many people was just amazing. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
And you know what? Seeing your name in the littlebigplanet 2 credits was also a pretty nice bonus:
Not too many people know that I worked on Hansel and Gretelbot. I tried to sort of keep it on the d/l. I’m not entirely sure why. I was extremely proud of my involvement, but I have always been taught to be humble and not to brag (she says as she writes a blog entry which some may consider “bragging” :P).
But it’s not bragging, is it? Truth told, I didn’t even believe I belonged there, grouped with all these GOOD creators. But there I was. After Hansel and Gretelbot, I was even invited to go to a game jam in England to test the move controllers. I wasn’t able to go due to the fact that I didn’t have my passport, but just to be asked was a gigantic honor.
Some people said some pretty awful things to me after the Hansel and Gretelbot thing and after they found out I was invited to the game jam. It was mostly things like “She sucks, why was she invited, I’m much better than her.”… you know, that sort of thing… And that was very upsetting to me and probably contributed to my stress quite a bit.
Even though LittleBigPlanet beat the living crap out of me physically, emotionally and mentally… it made me learn a lot about myself. It made me learn that you can’t do group projects alone and that sometimes you NEED a group of people to get something done right. I also learned that I don’t really suck as much as I always thought I did. I wouldn’t have been chosen for Hansel and Gretelbot if the people in charge didn’t think I had something useful to offer the group. And you know what? I may not be one of the “top creators”, but being accepted by the “top creators” as one of their peers is good enough for me.
3. I’m Goin’ To Disney World!
I’m 33 years old and it was my first time there. And you know what? If it were closer, I’d go to Disney about a hundred times a year. It made me happier than I’ve been in a long, long time. Also, I got to meet Charles Cubbage (Cuz Feeshe from LBP) while I was down there, so that made the trip even better!
4. The Flood of 2011:
And let’s not forget that somehow, by the grace of God in Heaven above, my house survived this:
I have friends who weren’t that lucky. I remember getting home on the day they let us back into our house and just wanted to cry tears of joy. It was one of the scariest situations that I’ve ever been through in my entire life.
Sure, the Bloomsburg Fair was flooded out, and that was a major bummer, but at least I still have a house. And that’s definitely something.
And, because the fair got cancelled, I was able to go to NYC to hang out with my LittleBigPlanet friend, Jason (aka foofles!) We went to the Museum of Natural History and got to see a lot of crystals and dinosaur bones! It was a whole lot of fun, even though new york scares the hell out of me! ^__^
Okay, so the above picture wasn’t taken from my most recent NYC trip, but it was taken in NYC, and foofles is in the picture. So, deal with it! (I didn’t have a pic of us together from our most recent nyc trip)
6. Singing Lessons:
I’m going to be completely honest here. I hurt myself singing for Ungreth’s LBP level. Like REALLY REALLY badly. How embarrassing is that? It turns out that I’ve been singing wrong my whole life. Not totally wrong, but wrong enough that it’s caused unnecessary stress on my jaw. Anyway, the choice was either give up and say “i’m not going to ever sing again” or get off my butt and do something, so I decided to do something about it. As of sometime in November, I am taking singing lessons. I have no idea how long it will take to fix my problem, or if it will ever be fixed completely, but at least I have to try.
7. Wish Fulfilled
I have to put Wish Fulfillment on here. It’s on here because I finally learned that doing it monthly was pretty much killing me. Since I realized that, I’ve actually started working harder on it. It doesn’t feel like work anymore. And that’s why that needs to go on this list. ^__^
I signed up for deviantart this year. I was REALLY scared to do this. I thought “I am a terrible artist… and this is probably a bad idea. People are going to hate my stuff!
Since I have signed up for this site, I have gotten such a boost in my self esteem that it isn’t even funny. I, in no way, think I’m good… but other people seem to like my stuff, and that makes me happy.
I’ve been featured on equestria daily five or six times, and … well, when you search pinkie pie, this is what you get:
The image I drew is the first to come up. I’ve never been first at anything in my entire life. EVER. I’m in no way being arrogant, I think the pictures that are below mine are much better than anything I can do. But it still makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside. ^__^
My cats are by no means something new this year, but they’re awesome and I love them. So they go on the list.
10. And then, of course, there’s always time to be thankful for PONIES:
These were made for me by hannaliten on deviantart. She did a much better job than I could ever do! ^__^
11. And finally: Friends and Family
You know, while I can’t say that 2011 was kind in the health department, it was kind in many other departments. I have a wonderful family, a loving husband, and some of the best friends I’ve ever had in my entire life.
Sometimes we search and search for the things that make us happy, and they’re right in front of us, but we can’t see them through our sorrow and the pain.
I’ve received thousands of messages on twitter and facebook from both online friends and offline friends cheering me on in this past year. I want to take this time to thank every single one of you. I have not taken you for granted, not one bit. From the kind messages I received when I was in the “hot seat” at the Guinness Book event to the get well soon messages I received in reply to my constant jaw pain… I appreciated every single one of them.
You are all a part of my life, whether I know you in person or if you are just text on a twitter page.
Thanks for helping make my 2011 great, all of you. Here’s wishing you all a great 2012!